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Linkin Park Lyrics

Memories consume
My past experiences are overwhelming and consuming me, making it difficult to move on.

Like opening the wound
Thinking about these memories is like reopening a wound that hasn't fully healed.

I'm picking me apart again
I am engaging in self-destructive behavior again, even though it's harmful to me.

You all assume
You all think that I am safe and secure in my own room, but that's not necessarily true.

I'm safe here in my room
I feel somewhat protected and secure in my own personal space, but it's not a permanent solution.

Unless I try to start again
Unless I make a real effort to change and move on, nothing will really change for me.

I don't want to be the one
I don't want to keep being the person that is always struggling and suffering.

The battles always choose
It seems like I'm always in some kind of conflict or struggle, even if I don't necessarily choose it.

'Cause inside I realize
But the truth is, I know deep down that the real problem is me and my confusion.

That I'm the one confused
I don't really know what I want or what I should do to change my situation, and that is causing a lot of anxiety and confusion.

I don't know what's worth fighting for
I'm not even sure what I should be working towards or what my goals are, which makes it hard for me to stay motivated.

Or why I have to scream
Sometimes I feel like I have to yell or act out in order to get people to notice me or take me seriously.

I don't know why I instigate
I don't really understand why I tend to start arguments or cause drama, even though it only makes things worse for me in the end.

And say what I don't mean
Sometimes I say things that I don't really believe or mean, and it only causes more confusion and conflict.

I don't know how I got this way
I'm not sure how I became so lost and confused, or what caused me to be this way.

I know it's not alright
But I do know that things aren't okay for me right now, and I need to find a way to make them better.

So, I'm breaking the habit
So, I'm making the decision to change my behavior and break away from my self-destructive habits.

Tonight
I'm making this change right now, and committing to doing better in the future.

Clutching my cure
I am holding onto something that I believe will help me get better and find peace within myself.

I tightly lock the door
I am shutting myself away from the world to try and find some solace and healing on my own.

I try to catch my breath again
I'm struggling to get my bearings and to calm myself down after experiencing so much stress and anxiety.

I hurt much more
Despite my efforts to isolate myself and recover, the pain of my situation is only getting worse.

Than anytime before
I feel like things are worse now than they've ever been, and it's becoming harder and harder for me to cope.

I had no options left again
I feel like I've exhausted all my resources and don't know what else to do to improve my situation.

I'll paint it on the walls
I'm going to make it obvious to everyone around me that I'm the reason for my own problems and struggles.

'Cause I'm the one at fault
I know that ultimately, I am responsible for my own actions and the consequences that come with them.

I'll never fight again
I'm making the conscious choice to avoid conflict and unnecessary drama in the future, in order to focus on my own personal growth.

And this is how it ends
This is the end of my old habits and behaviors, and the beginning of a new journey towards personal health and well-being.

But now I have some clarity
After making this change, I feel like I finally have a clear vision of what I want and how to get there.

To show you what I mean
I hope that by making these positive changes, I can inspire others to do the same and show them the benefits of personal growth.

I'll never be alright
I know that my past struggles and experiences will always be a part of me, but I am committed to overcoming them and living a fulfilling life.