Breaking the Habbit
Linkin Park Lyrics

Memories consume
My past experiences and thoughts are overwhelming and overshadowing my ability to function.

Like opening the wound
It's as if I'm purposely hurting myself or reliving painful experiences.

I'm picking me apart again
I am analyzing and criticizing myself, which only worsens my situation.

You all assume
Others think they know what's best for me or how I feel, but they really have no idea.

I'm safe here in my room
I feel protected and hidden from the outside world in my personal space.

Unless I try to start again
But if I attempt to change or make progress, I become vulnerable to failure and disappointment.

I don't want to be the one
I don't want to be the person who always has to face challenges and obstacles.

The battles always choose
Despite my desires, I always end up in difficult situations or conflicts.

'Cause inside I realize
Internally, I understand that it's my own confusion that leads me to these struggles.

That I'm the one confused
I am the source of my own confusion and the reason for my struggles.

I don't know what's worth fighting for
I am unsure about what is truly important and worth putting effort towards.

Or why I have to scream
I don't understand why I feel the need to express myself through anger or frustration.

I don't know why I instigate
I am unsure why I sometimes provoke or cause my own problems.

And say what I don't mean
I speak impulsively and without forethought, often regretting my words afterwards.

I don't know how I got this way
I am lost and unsure about how I ended up feeling or behaving in this manner.

I know it's not alright
I am aware that my current state is not healthy or sustainable.

So, I'm breaking the habits
I am taking steps to stop my negative tendencies and improve my well-being.

Tonight
I am starting now, and am committed to making a change.

Clutching my cure
I am holding onto something I believe will help me overcome my struggles.

I tightly lock the door
I am shielding myself from external sources of stress or negative influences.

I try to catch my breath again
I am attempting to calm and center myself before moving forward.

I hurt much more
The pain and difficulty of my situation is intensifying.

Than anytime before
I've been through tough times, but this feels even worse.

I had no options left again
I feel trapped and without a way out of my current predicament.

I'll paint it on the walls
I will express my struggles and feelings in a tangible way, for all to see.

'Cause I'm the one at fault
I acknowledge that my own actions and decisions have led me to this point of pain and difficulty.

I'll never fight again
I am renouncing my negative tendencies and will no longer engage in harmful or self-destructive behavior.

And this is how it ends
I am committing to a new path and a fresh start, putting an end to my past behavior and pain.

But now I have some clarity
I am gaining understanding and insight about my situation and myself.

To show you what I mean
I will communicate my struggles and my journey to others, so that they may understand and join me in my progress.

I'll never be alright
I acknowledge that my journey may be long and difficult, but I am committed to improving and breaking from my negative habits.

I'm breaking the habits
I am taking control of my situation and making positive changes, starting right now.

Tonight
I am starting my new journey now, committing to a better, healthier future.