Esaul
Linkin Park Lyrics


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Riding with the head full of buckets of red
And what I said still stuck in my head
But misled thinking the things I'd do
Would make you never wanna come back
When I run from that
To a place I can't find you at
Being trapped in this with you
Something that I never wanted to do
But through it all you got to see
That where I want to be
Is over the pen again letting it out of me
In the center of the day in a dream
Reeling all my thoughts getting lost in between
Realizing one
Not the way that it seems
And the killing of the killer with a head full of screams

I want to live in another place
Where no one can say that I live for them
(Still I see its not meant to be for me)
I want to be in the energy
Not with the enemy
A place for my head

And the second it starts
We'll both be crushed when it all falls apart
Knowing no matter how low
Hoping that you won't know the strain it puts to me
Seeing what you've done
And consequently
I've run away, just hidden again
Within the boundaries of the nameless
Don't want me to say this
But you're dragging me down
Getting Lost in the chaos, being tossed around

Singing again to myself
A head full of hectic
Hope that someday you'll regret this
Everything's the wrong place
The wrong time
To be added to the panic of my confine

Singing again to myself
A head full of hectic
Hope that someday you'll regret this
Everything's the wrong place
The wrong time
To be added to the panic of my confine

I want to live in another place
Where no one can say that I live for them
(Still I see its not meant to be for me)
I want to be in the energy
Not with the enemy
A place for my head

You try to take the best of me
Stay away
You try to take the best of me
Stay away
You try to take the best of me
Stay away
You try to take the best of me
Go away!
You try to take the best of me
Go away!
You try to take the best of me
Go away!
You try to take the best of me
Go away!
You try to take the best of me
Go away!

I want to live in another place
Where no one can say that I live for them
(Still I see its not meant to be for me)
I want to be in the energy
Not with the enemy
A place for my head

Stay...A...Way...

Singing again to myself
A head full of hectic
Hope that someday you'll regret this
Everything's the wrong place
The wrong time
Added to the panic of my confine

Singing again to myself
A head full of hectic
Hope that someday you'll regret this
Everything's the wrong place




The wrong time
Added to the panic of my confine

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Linkin Park's song "Esaul" express feelings of being trapped in a situation that the singer never intended to be in. The singer describes having a head full of violent thoughts and regrets, but realizing that these actions would only push people away. Instead, they want to find a place where they can be themselves and find peace. The lyrics touch on the strain that this situation has put on the singer, leading them to run away and hide.


Through the repetition of the chorus, the singer emphasizes their desire to live in a place where they can be free from the expectations of others and the chaos of their current situation. The last section of the song has a more hopeful tone, with the singer singing to themselves and hoping for a better future.


Overall, the lyrics of "Esaul" convey a sense of desperation and confusion, as the singer tries to find a way out of a difficult situation and onto a path that feels authentic and fulfilling.


Line by Line Meaning

Riding with the head full of buckets of red
I am driving with a lot of anger in my head


And what I said still stuck in my head
I am still thinking about the words I said that caused this anger


But misled thinking the things I'd do
I was wrong to think that my actions would make you not want to leave


Would make you never wanna come back
I thought that by acting out, you would stay with me forever


When I run from that
But now I am running from that thought


To a place I can't find you at
I am looking for a place where you are not around me anymore


Being trapped in this with you
I feel like I am trapped by this situation with you


Something that I never wanted to do
I never wanted to feel this way about someone I care for


But through it all you got to see
Despite everything, you were able to witness my true feelings


That where I want to be
I want to be somewhere else


Is over the pen again letting it out of me
I want to express my emotions through writing


In the center of the day in a dream
I envision myself doing this during the day


Reeling all my thoughts getting lost in between
I am sorting through my thoughts, but it's difficult to find clarity


Realizing one
I came to the realization that


Not the way that it seems
Things are not as they appear to be on the surface


And the killing of the killer with a head full of screams
I am attempting to silence my inner turmoil and anger


I want to live in another place
I desire to be in a different state of mind


Where no one can say that I live for them
I want to live for myself, not for the approval or opinion of others


(Still I see its not meant to be for me)
However, I understand that this may not be possible for me


I want to be in the energy
I want to be surrounded by positive energy and not negativity


Not with the enemy
I do not want to be with those who bring me down


A place for my head
I am searching for a place where I can find peace and clarity


And the second it starts
When everything falls apart


We'll both be crushed when it all falls apart
We will both be hurt when the situation deteriorates


Knowing no matter how low
Even if things get really bad


Hoping that you won't know the strain it puts to me
I hope that you do not fully realize how difficult this situation is for me


Seeing what you've done
I am aware of the impact that you have had on me


And consequently
As a result


I've run away, just hidden again
I am retreating from the situation and hiding from you


Within the boundaries of the nameless
I am feeling lost and alone


Don't want me to say this
I know you do not want me to express these feelings


But you're dragging me down
You are negatively affecting my mental state


Getting Lost in the chaos, being tossed around
I am getting overwhelmed by the chaotic situation and feel like I am being thrown around


Singing again to myself
I am repeating my thoughts to myself


A head full of hectic
My mind is filled with chaos


Hope that someday you'll regret this
I am holding onto hope that you will realize the impact of your actions


Everything's the wrong place
Things do not feel right


The wrong time
This is not the right time for me to be dealing with this situation


To be added to the panic of my confine
I feel like I am trapped in a panic-inducing situation


You try to take the best of me
You are attempting to bring out the worst in me


Stay away
I want you to keep your distance from me


Go away
Leave me alone


Singing again to myself
I am repeating my thoughts to myself


A head full of hectic
My mind is filled with chaos


Hope that someday you'll regret this
I am holding onto hope that you will realize the impact of your actions


Everything's the wrong place
Things do not feel right


The wrong time
This is not the right time for me to be dealing with this situation


Added to the panic of my confine
I feel trapped and extremely anxious


Stay...A...Way...
I am emphasizing my desire for you to stay away from me




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Andrei Diaconu

LYRICS 🥀🖤🥀
Riding with a head full of buckets of red
And when they said still stuck in the head
A thoroughbred thoroughly bled
And led to the land of the mental combats
Following a front attack so you can never run from that

The planet sizing up the horizon
Smaller than a fly stand, I'm a lyrical lamp
The power that I got on my cynical hand
With a pen, once again

Swimming in the center of the hit or the miss
Reeling in my thoughts getting lost in the mist
Realizing one not the size of the fist
And the killing of the killer with a flick of the wrist

I wanna live in another place
Where no one can say that I lived for them
(Still see it's not meant to be for me)
I wanna be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

The second it's gone
The weapon of time is stronger than a nuclear bomb
Eternity-you have not- So in that, you can't fight nor flee
Still, you'd be around if it wasn't for me

Way back first whatever my friends
That you see the attraction of the payback
Don't want me to say that, playback the thing now
Getting lost in the chaos tossing it down

Singing again to myself, electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectic
Accept this, doing double-duty on time
Adding to the panic in my confine

Singing again to myself, electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectic
Accept this, doing double-duty on time
Adding to the panic in my confine

I wanna live in another place
Where no one can say that I lived for them
(Still see it's not meant to be for me)
I wanna be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds

Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds

I wanna live in another place
Where no one can say that I lived for them
(Still see it's not meant to be for me)
I wanna be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

Burn! Burn! Burn!

Singing again to myself, electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectic
Accept this, doing double-duty on time
Adding to the panic in my confine

Singing again to myself, electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectic
Accept this, doing double-duty on time
An addict to the panic of my confine



Henry Zukzk

Hey man, those lyrics are of Esaul (A place for my Head Demo) with Chester on vocals; these are the actual lyrics for the video:

[Verse 1: Mike Shinoda, with Mark Wakefield]
Ridin' with a head full of buckets of red
And what I said still stuck in my head
A thoroughbred, thoroughly bled
And led to the land of the never-come-backs
Smaller than a thumbtack, coulda never run from that
Dark planetary signs risin' over the horizon
Smaller than a fly, I stand over lyrical land
The power of a gun in my cynical hand with a pen, once again
Swimmin' in the center of the hit or the miss
A list of the thoughts gettin' lost in the mist
Realize the one, not the size of the fist
And the killin' of the killer with thе flick of the wrist

[Chorus: Mark Wakefield & Mike Shinoda]
I wanna live in another place
No one'll say that I will live for them
Still, I see it's not meant to be for me
I wanna be with the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

[Verse 2: Mike Shinoda, with Mark Wakefield]
The second is gone, the weapon of time is stronger than a nuclear bomb
Eternity of half-life, somethin' that math can't write
You can't fight, nor flee
Still be around if it wasn't for me
Way that first whatever my friends
You can see the attraction of the payback
Don't mean to say that, playback the thing now
Gettin' lost in the chaos, tossin' it down
Singin' the din to myself, electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectics
Set this to the tempo to be on time
An addict to the panic in my confine
Singin' the din to myself, electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectics
Set this to the tempo to be on time
An addict to the panic in my confine
[Chorus: Mark Wakefield & Mike Shinoda]
I wanna live in another place
No one'll say that I will live for them
Still, I see it's not meant to be for me
I wanna be with the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

[Bridge: Mark Wakefield]
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds
Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds

[Chorus: Mark Wakefield & Mike Shinoda]
I wanna live in another place
No one'll say that I will live for them
Still, I see it's not meant to be for me
I wanna be with the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

[Outro: Mike Shinoda]
Singin' the din to myself, electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectics
Set this to the tempo to be on time
An addict to the panic in my confine
Singin' the din to myself, electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectics
Set this to the tempo to be on time
An addict to the panic in my confine



Lyrics Squad

LYRCS
Writing with a head full of buckets of red
And what I said is still stuck in my head
A thoroughbred, thoroughly bled,
And led to the land of the never-come-backs
Smaller than a thumbtack, and they never run from that
From planetary signs, rising over the horizon,
Smaller than a fly's head
I'm a lyrical lamb, the power of a god
In my cynical hand
With a pen, once again swimmin'
In the centre of a hit or a miss
Reeling in my thoughts gettin' lost in the mist
Realise that one the size of the fist
And the killin' of a killer with a flick of the wrist

I wanna live in another place
Where no one can say that I,
Live for them
(Still I see that it's not meant to be for me)
I wanna be in the energy
Not with the enemy
A place for my head

And the second is gone
The weapon of time is stronger than a nuclear bomb
Eternity or half-life
Somethin' that math can't write
You can't fight nor flee
Still be around if it wasn't for me
Weigh that, verse whatever, my friends
So you can see the attraction of the payback
Don't want me to say that?
Play back the thing now, gettin' lost in the chaos
Tossin' it down,

Singin' again to myself
Electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectic
Accept this, doing double-duty on time
Adding to the panic of my confine

Singin' again to myself
Electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectic
Accept this, doing double-duty on time
Adding to the panic of my confine

I wanna live in another place
Where no one can say that I,
Live for them
(Still I see that it's not meant to be for me)
I wanna be in the energy
Not with the enemy
A place for my head

Soon the Aztec moon will heat my room heal my wounds [8x]

I wanna live in another place
Where no one can say that I
Live for them
(Still I see that it's not meant to be for me)
I wanna be in the energy
Not with the enemy
A place for my head

Burn! [4x]

Singin' again to myself
Electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectic
Accept this, doing double-duty on time
Adding to the panic of my confine

Singin' again to myself
Electric neck twitch
Hungry for a head full of hectic
Accept this, doing double-duty on time
Adding to the panic of my confine



All comments from YouTube:

Vaibhav

you know they are untouchable legends when their demos are better than most of the songs today

DARDIMjs

Not at all

Ilya Yurievich

True.

JOSEFA DUARTE DE DUARTE

😍😍😍😍

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TRUUUUUUUUUE

Heman Nathan

Damnnnn

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Zeke

When a demo rap 20+ years old is still far better then anything current, Linkin Park forever!

hawkeyemihawk getting money lord afro hokage

@RIP Violet have you listened to kendrick lamars new album?

RIP Violet

@hawkeyemihawk getting money lord afro hokage well everything now is so similar and over done

s3lfFish

you clearly haven't listened to anything since then. Though this demo is dope.

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